confessions of a witch girl: bufo: a whisper of the eternal

This post is an ode to the most crucial, liberating, and freeing growth experience I have ever had.

Bufo is a glimpse behind the veil that many may never see in their human lives. It’s a gentle hand lifting up the silk layer of fabric between the room you are in, and the room you didn’t know existed.

I would like to preface this blog post by saying: this is a transmission. Due to the nature of the speed at which this information has flowed to me, there may be more spelling or grammatical errors than usual. The information comes swiftly and worrying about spelling or grammar can take away from the message in the moment it is received.

The most integral aspect of Bufo, besides the experience itself, is that the God molecule (as it is so aptly named) works on every area of your life for at least a year. Truly taking root from the seed of the universe itself, implanting wisdom, love, and divinity in to the very core of your being. In my experience, Bufo acts not only on your phsyical body, but on your emotional and spiritual as well. In the below post I will try to take a experience so beautiful, spellbinding and infinite, and write it in to the finite language of English. I hope it can translate, for if you can grasp the concepts you are about to read, your life will never be the same. What’s more- if you have the opportunity to ingest this molecule- you will be forever changed on a level that cannot be grasped by any except those who leap in to the magic of this thing called Bufo.

If I could describe bufo in one sentence (though more than a trillion could describe the depth of what is understood and instantly known once you ingest it) it would be this:

When you experience Bufo, you understand you are everything, yet you are nothing at all.

In this sense, when you return back to your soul’s focal point (your current human life), everything is changed.

The next most interesting thing I can mention about Bufo is that it calls to you. Now, this may not seem important, but the fact that it calls to you to experience it ties back together with the idea that you are everything and simultaneously nothing. Everything that is happening at any given moment in your ‘reality’ is YOU. Every experience you have, good, bad, or otherwise, is yourself experiencing a different vantage point of itself. What better way to experience all aspects of the universe than through the many different faces, places, and atmospheres that are all being created by YOU. The reason people get hung up on this idea when someone who has gone through the experience tries to explain it to them is because they are looking at themselves as singular. So when they imagine that everything is actually THEM, they think from a singular point of view of a human mind., as an individual being. But that isn’t the you I mean. When I say, you see yourself in all that is- I don’t mean the version of you reading this, I mean the real you. The god within you. The universe within you. That is the you that you recognize everywhere, and you understand you are one with it all.

Now, back to being called. You are called to the experience because you are every experience that you will ever have. We are a multi-faceted being operating from infinite numbers of reality all at the same time ( I get in to more about this later). But if you can for a moment, wrap your head about being everywhere, at every moment, of every lifetime, all at once- the ‘being called’ by the experience makes so much sense. Because you are the experience. The experience is inside of you already, you have already had it, and your soul is using different aspects of your reality (including other ‘people’) to lead you there. I realize now that this is how manifestation works. The version of you that already has the life you desire, will call you to that life, once you align with it. You are literally EVERYTHING, nothing can exist unless you create it in to being FIRST. This was a massive lesson that I learned/understood after my second Bufo experience. If we do not create FIRST, as in become what it is that we want to experience, then it is literally not possible to experience it. Because you are the focal point. You are the point of creation. If you can not BE it, it cannot BE you. Which means you can’t experience it. You are everything.

So when Bufo calls to you- it is your consciousness awakening. In order for you to experience it in this reality, this awakening is manifested in to this molecule called Bufo. You created the molecule to have the experience. You are creating everything. The molecule just serves as a portal to get there.

Another thing I considered. The molecule is ingested via your breath (vaping it into your lungs) and your breath is your soul (every spiritual teacher including Jesus taught us that breath is the essence of life- so doesn’t it seem fitting that the god molecule must be inhaled through your life force?)

Once ingested, it burns away parts of your ego that keeps you in separation from God, but God is actually you. As you experience this flame of destruction sweeping through your being, you begin to realize what you truly are. This is the part of the experience that can truly feel as if you are dying, or about too. It is your human ego not wanting to remember who you truly are. What people often describe in this moment is the feeling of worrying about death or even dying in that moment, but it is not the physical body that has this worry, it is your ego mind.

When you go through a period of release, or a break down in your external reality- it is a reflection of what is being released or broken down within your consciousness. Everything, truly everything, is coming from within you. Within your being, which is a focal point the universe is choosing to have a vantage point from in order to experience itself in a certain way. Your human form, appearing as a human body, is the Universe’s way of experiencing itself through only your vantage point. The universe can only continue to create as we continue to change, grow, are birthed, and die. Everything you experience is just a larger version of what is happening within.

This can be seen if viewed from a even larger view point of society as a whole. Have you not noticed that the law of manifestation ( though known about for centuries) has gotten popular at the same time for ‘everybody’? Don’t you find it odd that the moment you started to hear about manifestation principles suddenly your world had answers for you? Friends of yours brought it up to you? You see it all over Instagram? It was everywhere- wasn’t it? That is because consciousness began to notice itself- through you. And when that happened- your reality reflected the shift, and it appeared as everyone noticing something at the same time. But it all came from you.

YOU AREN’T ATTRACTING ANYTHING- THAT IMPLIES SEPARATION - You are forever unfolding like petals on a flower (hence why chakras are depicted as lotuses).

Chakras represent the energy systems of the body in ayurvedic medicine as well as a multitude of other modalities. When you interact with the Bufo molecule- you begin to connect dots between every religion, every interaction, every book, every experience you have ever had. It is as if suddenly you understand it all.

You are forever expanding like a ripple of water. The farther your ripple gets away from you, the larger outside of yourself it will appear in your reality. This is why so many spiritual leaders preach on our frequency and tending to our points of attraction- the longer you hold on to a frequency (or thought) the farther out the ripple reaches, until it begins to affect every area of your life- because you are the one doing the creating. Why do you think when you start to worry about money- suddenly the economy colapses? Why do you think those that do not participate in those thoughts (frequencies) will not experience that collapse in the same way? The second you connect these dots- your reality cannot help but change. You are seeing behind the scenes and the scenes are seeing within YOU.

In this way, one can know everything occuring in the universe- just by deeply looking within one’s own self. Literally the entire universe- you can know it all. You can predict the ‘future’ by simply looking within yourself. Another great example of this is why ‘aliens’ are showing up all of the sudden in this reality. Because aliens represent parts of ourselves we have always wondered about existing but hadn’t accessed yet. This is why we are discovering so much about space and other planets right now. It all represents how deeply we are willing to look within ourselves. Whether we recognize that or not. Look how interested everyone is in magic, spells, and witches now? IT IS ALL A REPRESENTATION OF WHAT WE ARE GETTING CLOSER TO INSIDE OF OURSELVES, REFLECTED IN THE MIRROR OF REALITY. It is truly all just a larger version of us.

Spiritual leaders are just people who can see and understand the ripple first. All people are one conciousness from a different vantage point, so when every person experiences this unity at one time I think the world will transform in to something else where our evolution will become something deeper than we currently experience human life as. I saw that ‘Christ conciousness’ will be the unity of this knowing. The recognition of the ‘ripples’ within others. Life will not be about recognizing what you are individually anymore, it will be about elevating the one conciousness in to phsycial creation to truly create a beauty that we cannot even imagine. It is the ultimate collapse and birth in to something new, something else.

After understanding so many principles I have found myself experiencing a crazy dissonance in my body and my life. It is as if my current reality does not represent my new focal point- and the discomfort is REAL. This is why integration is so important after your Bufo session. To understand all that you are realizing and seeing, and to help calm your ego as your realizations grow vaster and spread deeper within you. You will also find yourself as almost two separate parts. The part of you that feels outside of your old reality, and the part of you that has empathy and compassion for the part of you that created it. You begin to truly intigrate and understand what gratitude and acceptance is. Gratitude is peace. It is the knowledge that you are exactly as you should be, exactly where you should be, at the exact right time.

This new understanding of gratitude made me realize that you must feel this level of gratitude to transform anything externally because gratitude literally feels like this: like an acceptance and a compassion for the part of you creating what you don’t prefer, simply because you are a soul fumbling through existence as a human and you simply forgot.

I also understood concepts about substances and our use of them. I saw that alcohol does not have its own vibration, it is simply a magnifying glass. Other drugs such as cocaine actually are like living entities that vibrate so differently that they could almost be described to have their own vantage points as souls. They could vibrationally be viewed as people, their frequencies are so dense, almost as if they have their own personalities. I felt that I understood that alcohol is an amplifier, it does not have any type of consciousness. It amplifies the frequency you are resonating on. But drugs on the other hand, their frequency was shown to me as if almost a individual person. A density that once ingested, will change the user SO much, to take on the frequency of the density of that drug.

I also understood relationships with others. I saw that when two people go in to a relationship it is because two points of conciousness with their own frequencies, can create from a new vantage point when they join. A vantage point that only two seperate frequencies combined could create. That is what a soul is, it has its own frequency like a fingerprint. No other person has the same fingerprint so no other person can have the same frequency as another. You can resonate on a similar plane of reality based on a similar frequency, but no two will be the same. So when two people get together it is because together they create from two separate view points at once. Like two ingredients in to a bowl.

A baby or child is a representation, a physical representation, of those frequencies that have vibrated so densely together that it creates another physical form. This ties in to the experience I had during Bufo of being born an infinite number of times but dying just as many. I had the experience that I was always being born, yet always simultaneously dying, because in each moment- each new thought you die and are born on to the frequency of that thought.

My focal point as Alethea is the consequence of my ‘parent’s’ frequencies creating a new focal point that will create another version of reality just by existing as myself.

So with this new understanding of relationships, I can now look at all of my past and present relationships from a completely different vantage point of understanding. Now I can only view them as preferred or not preferred, not neccessarily as good or bad. They were just frequencies that needed to mix in order for a new frequency to be born withn both people (focal points, aka souls). These new frequencies born within the other creates a forever alteration in their original fingerprint frequency. So in this way all relationships are always, always, permanently shaping your frequency but it is always for the better. So even though your ‘humanity’ can label something as good or bad, that is just semantics. The universe does not know of good or bad, it just knows of all things. It is our humanity that labels any experience as such. Any experience is a tweak of frequency which allows you to access different levels of aweness and information. Which is why we so often feel so changed after experiencing large events or break ups, it is because your focal point of conciousness is opened to a higher frequency. I also understood that you can choose to not intigrate the new frequencies that you gain along your life path, and that this is neither good or bad. The universe is just folding in on itself and then away from itself over and over and over.

I also felt that so much in life is easier when you just tap in to that frequency which we would call a belief. Even the way I have tortured myself in the gym to always be there… this is the reason my physical form doesn’t change at times. Because rather than focus on the flow and frequency of the action of creating fitness, I force myself to a end result rather than enjoy the act of creating it. I understood that this is why so many people struggle to lose weight, or cannot get wealthy. It is because nothing has anything to do with the end result, because the end result cannot exist until you become the frequency where the end result already exists. It is truly only in the CREATING, that the creation can exist. If we were to only focus on ease and flow and the comfort and peace you can hold in your body while doing any activity, that activity will benefit you and always have a positive result- even if the conscious mind cannot see how it can get you to your ‘desired’ end result. Truly the only way to get your desired end result is not to care about the end result at all, and only the creating of choosing the most preferable frequency available to you at any given moment.

This principle went for food as well. If you feel joy and pleasure of eating the food, it will only bring nourishment. Then you would never DESIRE to over indulge, because what you are would be in total balance and perfect harmony. So even if you had a moment where someone may say that you indulged in to many cookies- if in that moment it brought you ease and joy, then you in fact did not. But if the whole time you felt that you knew you should not be eating them, and you were infact indulging, then in fact it is not what you should be doing- and it will harm you.

There was also a stark knowing that we are always on our way to something that is for our highest good- steering us to what is ‘preferable’ vs unpreferable. I was made very aware that the semantics of human language have led us to a contrast of understanding and judgement. We judge all things as good or bad, rather than viewing them as just BEING. Every circumstance and event we experience we feel the need to label as positive or negative. I suddenly understood that if you are always (in each and every moment) simply choosing what feels more preferable in that moment (and not focusing on what level of good or bad it is) will always lead us to where we are heading- which is always the best outcome, which is always our desires. So even if I feel something is more preferable, and I go towards that thought (for example it feels preferable to go for dinner at a certain resturaunt over a different one) and it leads me to a cirumstance that is not something I would deem as ‘good’, (for example at the resturaunt I end up getting food poisoning)- I am able to see that the getting of the food poisoning is still leading me to my desire. We just haven’t seen the end result yet. Let’s imagine that my food poisoning caused me to miss a flight I was meant to get on and on that flight there was an outbreak of a sickness far worse than the food poisoning that prevented me from getting on the flight in the first place. We are so quick to judge every moment thinking that if something looks bad at first it can only lead to more bad- but what Bufo made me realize is that everything is always leading you back to your ‘preferable’ path, even if it doesn’t seem like it is in that moment. Our lives are always leading us back to a state of joy and well being, it is within our own thoughts that we create prisons holding us back from drifting with the natural flow of our true essence and nature- back to joy and peace. We get so caught up in regret on believing that a decision we made was bad or wrong but they never are- they are always taking you back to your highest state.

When I was explaining this principle after my experience to a friend they asked me:

‘Well let’s say something is preferable to you- but deep down you know it is wrong or immoral- what is the case then?’

The answer came to me as quickly as the question- in that instance it is in fact not preferable. It is only preferable if you can’t see that it isnt the right thing to do. Because the two cannot exist in the same space, at the same time. The second you feel the dissonance of the immorality- the second the decision is no longer preferable- because what is preferable does not come with a catch. The second that you know that something is the wrong thing to do (but you still want to do it) you have shifted out of the state of preference, as it no longer feels good. In that situation you are just convincing youself to do something because you have in fact already noticed that it is wrong. Feeling resistance to anything immediately means it is not preferable to your alignment- so you either tweak your view point until it feels natural again, or made a different choice all together, or simply remove yourself until your ease comes back to you again.

Preference is not to be confused with societal structures and rules either. If something is labeled ‘right’ in society, it does not mean that it has to feel preferable to you. So you almost have to remove your ego and what society tells you is right and wrong and go off of what makes you feel comfort and in ease and compare what makes you feel out of comfort and ease. This is not to say that all situations will simply always feel preferable and easy either. For example- getting a school degree will have moments that are both uncomfortable and preferable in that action like studying vs meeting cool people in your class. Obviously the studying may, on the surface level, feel unpreferable in the moment. It is in these moments that it is neccessary to shift your vantage point of view of the situation unit it really feels at ease again. You have to tweak your view point of the situation and look at it in a different way, until the new way you are viewing the situation becomes easy and comfortable. It should also be noted that just because something feels preferable to one person, it does not mean it will feel preferable to another, nor should it. It is all about your own personal internal ease.

The right thing for you to do may make me feel resistance and vice versa, because what is right for you is leading you, and what is right for me is leading me.

This of course lead to the question ‘what if someone kills someone else and felt joy and ease when they did it?’

Again the answer instantly arose:

Even if someone kills someone, and they felt nothing when they did it, in fact maybe they even did feel joy and ease- even though the act itself was horrible and hurt so many- but the ultimate outcome for everyone is preferable in the long run. From a soul view nothing is right or wrong. The frequency that did the act ultimately is transformed to something else it was meant to transform too- the people who experience the trauma and hatred and pain are also transformed in to different versions of themselves. Everything is always unfolding exactly as it should towards preferable. even when in the moment its the worst thing ever. I know that that concept is so hard to wrap your head around because even writing it I’m like no, some things are just morally wrong and cant ever have a positive outcome but when I zoom farther and farther and farther out side of my own view, I understand what it is I am saying. I think from a semantics view the words preferable and morally correct seem to be the same but it isnt. Every act is always leading you to the preferable, and when I say that I mean the ultimate growth your soul wants to experience.

Then I was asked by my friend,

‘Okay but what if someone is evil? And a bad person?’

I answered,

‘ You’re zooming in too much again, what I’m seeing is that nothing can be labeled like that. Everything just is. WE label it. The universe holds everything within it. And everything means everything. We label what is good and what is evil. But really it just is.’

I also realized through this dialogue that the level of growth and expansion your particular vantage point has had (your soul) dictates your preferences. Which is why sometimes we disagree so much on certain ideas. The human words of ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ were designed to explain the feelings of ease and resistance. We have assumed, however, it is meant as a finite explanation that should blanket everyone. So because I feel something is preferable and easy, I assume everyone does or should. When really it doesn’t at all. Humans forgot this truth which is why we all feel so strongly to force others to align with OUR preferences. This is literally why war exists. Everyone as individuals are forcing others to feel their internal compasses, but no one else can or ever will, not truly. They aren’t meant too! We are all at different stages of soul growth. The return of Christ isn’t the man, it is the unity of understanding he had for everyone’s different levels of evolution. Which is why he wasn’t mad when he was killed by less evolved souls. When we all feel that level of compassion for each other- that is when ‘Christ returns’.

During my Bufo journey I was supported by an animal. The fascilitator Nancy (a true medicine woman and healer) had her Boxer, Louie, in the room. The dog was very much a support during my experience and did not leave my side through out. I realized that pets and animals in general have a more simple frequency with a more basic conciousness so that they can support our expansion. They expand too but their frequency is less dense than ours which is why they don’t experience thought in the same conscious way that we do. This is because they are more fluid in their state which provides us with easy access to joy by being shifted by their fluidity and less dense vibration, out of our more dense vibration. They let us relax and get outside of ourselves, they are almost in a sleep state of frequency. This is why people think animals can see and communicate with the spirit world, because they can. They have one foot in that vibratory state and another one in ours. When you have a pet at certain times in your life, you can know you are on a vibrational expansion point in your existence, which is why they showed up to support you to do so. They are supporting your growth in your life. This is why they don’t stay with us our whole lives, and their lives are much shorter than ours, they come to us to support us through our conciousness ‘growth spurts’ which can be quite difficult.

In closing- the knowledge, understanding, and deep knowing I experienced through my experiences with Bufo are profound, and continuously integrating within me, even weeks, months after the experience. I hope the wisdom I was shown can fall gently on to your humanity and sprinkle stars across any darkness you may currently find yourself within.

I love you.