Confessions of a witch girl: as above, so below

Sometimes my emotions are a storm.

They build up.

They frighten me.

They swirl and pull and tear at me.

Bruising my skin and choking the breath from my lungs.

I lose trust in them and no longer believe they are a part of me.

They feel from a different place, a different space, not of my body, not of my mind.

Other times they hold me tightly, comforting me in a blanket of safety that carries me home.

How do we trust our emotions? How can we hold faith through their storms and steady in their chaos when it comes?

Emotions are a guide. They turn in to a map if we are willing to read it.

When the storm of pain, fear, and anxiety circle within us- what does it say? What is it trying to draw our attention too? What parts of us are needing to be held and seen? Where is it trying to lead us?

These are the questions we need ask when we get caught up in the presence of an emotional down pour.

For years I wanted to only feel happy. I desired this happiness so much that I would do anything in my power to keep myself in that state. This often leads us to an escapist lifestyle. Where happiness and instant dopamine is treasured and placed above all else.

What I didn’t know then, is that as amazing as the highs are, the lows are of equal (if not more) value.

It is in our lows that we meet ourselves. The distractions are removed and we often come face to face with the vulnerable part of us that we had been trying to avoid. Here is where we meet God.

Now this isn’t to say that one should force themselves in to a low state to find herself or himself. This is to say that riding the waves of your own emotions is a skill and a necessary one.

We must be willing to open ourselves wide, like a hungry mouth waiting to be fed.

Experience each bite of your emotional landscape with the savouring salvation of a tastebud.

Feel your pain. Examine it. Explore it. What does it feel like? What color is it? From where in your body did it come? Experience it with such curiosity that you become the explorer of a new world. Your inner world.

It is in these moments we discover new aspects of self. New depths to our experiencing of life, to being alive.

So to trust your emotions you must first honour them.

Allow them to be part of you but separate from you simultaneously. You are the observer of the wave that is crashing at the shores of your consciousness. Do not get lost within the wave, this is when we feel ourselves drown.

By honouring your emotions for their power, but maintaining them as separate from you, you create a space from which all true learning takes place.

The map will lead you inwards but through navigation of your inner landscape, your outer landscape will too be explored. We relate with our external lives the same way we relate to our inner lives. If you want to feel safe in your life, first you must cultivate safety within you. If you are a safe space for you, your life will follow suite. This goes for all things. As above so below. What is within will also manifest with out.

It all starts with you.

It all starts in you.

What a beautiful place to be.